Ok so in keeping my word about keeping you up to date with my dating progress, here's episode #2, Title: CONFUSED!
In this new dating that I'm doing, some days are fun and some ehhh not so much and it's really because each "relationship" is just surface and sometimes a girl just wants a real hug from her guy but who does she hug when none are really her "guy"?? See my issue...ok on to the updates.
LIKES: I like having options when I want to go out and need a break from being boss at work and at home. Honestly, I like that by the time I've had my morning coffee I've gotten 3 "Good Morning" texts (ego boost with my sausage egg and cheese? yes please!). I enjoy the different personalities of each guy and sorting out what I want, don't want, and can't deal with in a guy, you know, like research for future references.
DISLIKES: I'm a relationship person by nature so not being really open, catering, and lovey dovey is kind of like glass half empty but it's a new thing so some adjustments are necessary I guess.
TooCool and I are still in this weird limbo, some days we act like a real couple with emotion and "discussions" and then others I'm just like "Hey, we're not really together" lol. Right now, I'm getting my first real taste of dating a single parent because now the issues of where to spend the holidays and with whom comes up, needs to be dealt with, and not taken personally. I have to say he does a pretty good job at making sure I don't feel iced out and constantly asks about Chunks but still...so the back and forth still exists but when we do get together it's always fun so we'll see.
I've cut PopUp out of the scenario simply because enough old feelings haven't died for us to just chill and I know I don't want to go down that road with him again so...BYE. Lesson from the Wasband days, If my mother and oldest brother don't like you, it's probably not going to work, so not worth any real headache.
::SIGH:: Mr. Carter. Lord, Mr. Carter. He's...well...he's so...lol I messed up! I messed up big time and caught feelings. It was really supposed to be a light thing but we mesh so well, we can talk for hours, chemistry's a little hotter than it should be, and I messed up and really started liking him. Like, WHAT PART OF THE GAME IS THIS?!?! We had a date on Saturday that was great and then when we didn't want to leave each other, even though we both had some where to be I started to think "Something's not right here". He's NOT the ONE, this is fact so, Candace what are you doing?? I started to get jealous when he'd talk about his child's mother, even when it wasn't anything nice, just the thought that they were together picking up her mother....I read a post on my girlie Mimi's blog that kind of was my wanted omen to cut this back. So I called and confessed and asked for time to get my life, he's hesitant because it's unexpected and "cold" as he put it so he'll need time to see that I mean it. Lord, give me strength and a nosey friend with me if we run into each other.